Thursday, June 24, 2010

The drug

A patient in pain is brought to the emergency and has been served shot of drugs aimed to relieve the pain. He never tried the drugs before - and the very thought of this gets him into horror - but there is no way - the pain is too strong even for an energetic person he is.

The drugs help to get a relief, and when everyone falls asleep, the patient jumps into the window and runs away. He continues the shots himself and this allows a bearable life - for a very long time - without attending to the disease. Eventually the disease becomes so evident it is not possible to live with it, the patient will die in a year if they do not cure the disease for good - so he returns to the hospital and asks for the cure.

However, soon the patient realises that curing the disease means no helpful shots of dope anymore. Meantime it has become a routine. It increases alertness and adds to the feeling of well-being. Athletic performance is enhanced - so the routine tasks are done much faster. Sometimes the patient feels the temporary anxiety when looking at the mess around - but, it is short. And it's been a long time - the life without the daily shot seems a hazy mirage, which only has one glaring label on it - the pain.

The pain is gone for good now - and so are the injections. But it feels worse than before. The dependency kicks in. Regular depression. No more euphoria that was offsetting the periods of boredom. It's all gray.

The patient needs to relearn the life from the beginning. All the mistakes he did already but forgot - he needs to do again, one by one. It's a long journey, and every day not once or twice he thinks about taking a magic shot again.

But somewhere there is a hidden thought, the joy of the freedom, the absence of the necessity to fit the entire life according to the need for the next shot.

And this thought brings the meaning back to his life, allows him to continue further even through all the hardships.

It really is worth it.

Living without the life-long dependence.



to the most-debated networking feature of the past decade, with compliments for all the pain it alleviated

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